You only live once, so fuck it - English Version #885647

In my book, I address topics that often remain hidden, yet still deeply affect many people—including me, when I was at exactly this point a few years ago. I wrote down my past to reach those who are trapped in similar situations today as I was back then. Because if you often feel alone and lost on your journey, I would like my book to be the source of strength you need at that very moment. It helps to know that someone is there who knows exactly how that feels.

Many people who have heard my story have told me how much it has helped them. That's exactly why I found the courage to put my experiences on paper to help others – even if it meant confronting my own demons. This book has not only helped me to give comfort and hope to others, but also to heal myself and become stronger than I ever thought possible.
 
 
During my school years, I had to experience how cruel children can be and how helpless you feel when bullying becomes a part of everyday life. Even with the support of parents or teachers, one often finds oneself alone in the fight. And that was just the beginning. I never tried to change myself to please others, and yet it was painful to often swim against the tide alone. It was hard to find people you could really trust.

I also had to experience traumatic events of sexual harassment in my own family firsthand. For years, I carried the resulting emotional scars with me, without anyone really listening to me or believing me.

I also describe the pressure that weighs on us from all sides – from parents, friends, and society. The expectation of others and the need to be perfect oneself, avoiding mistakes and remaining silent on difficult topics. All this, combined with the challenges of the Corona pandemic, caused me to struggle with anxiety about the future and obsessive thoughts that cost me not only valuable time, but almost my life.

But through all of this, I learned one thing: to know myself and truly appreciate life. My past, as dark as it was, made me the strong person I am today.

The journey through hell was worth it, because now I know what it means to be truly happy and to deal with problems differently than before.
 
Yes, I wish my path had been easier. But every challenge has its purpose. No matter what you're going through, there's always a way out. I know how easy it is to doubt yourself and believe you're too weak to keep going. But you are stronger than you can imagine. Even though the road is hard, it will get better. And one day you will realize how truly valuable you are, how unique.
 
With this book, I hope to be able to give you something on your journey – a spark of hope, courage, and the certainty that you are never alone